America the Beautiful, the land I call my own,
I'm not mad at you. I still love you. But I'm very, painfully disappointed in you.
We in this world, and even we in America, are one. Globally, as humans living on this Earth, we are a collective consciousness. We are all part of each other.
We are all small components of a larger whole. We have disagreements with others and may have different views or convictions, but that does not change being one collective unit with one collective consciousness.
There is one fair and honest way to see a reflection of the collective consciousness in real life: you have a vote.
One person each putting forth their feeling on something, voting for their point of view, and seeing what happens as a collective. The answer shows the feelings of the majority of that collective. Before last night, when I think of how pure and powerful and honest that can be, I imagine scenarios like Whoville on Christmas when everybody is holding hands and singing because the collective love for the Christmas spirit outshines the sadness of not having gifts. The Whos voted to love. Or scenarios like everyone as a whole voting to take a nap at 4pm or hugging each other at 3pm worldwide. I have a deep sense of altruism when it comes to how loving humanity can be when they're aware of that power.
Last night I was shown however, that I am not the American majority. I do not have the same inherent values that the majority of my country does. I'm not part of my country's collective feeling as it weighs out. I refuse to support the rehetoric and racism that the majority of my country views as permissible. I hold myself to a higher standard of humanity than the collective consciousness of my own country. I'm embarrassed to be an American today for that reason, and I've never felt like that.
Mike Pence has been a supporter of conversion therapy. That's when they use electroshock therapy on gay ,usually young gay individuals, with the premise of eleminating the homosexual impulses. They try to electrocute you and Pavlov's dog you to condition yourself to run away from your natural thoughts. From who you are. Through pain.
The collective consciousness of America supported that man and gave him a desk in the White House.
My human rights don't fit into the "ideal" society of the majority. Neither do those of close friends who are of color, who follow a different religion, who are on a journey of gender identity, or those who seek refuge in America for the same reason we came here- democracy and freedom.
We had a chance as a whole to say to the world "We are brave and we are inclusive. We value those lives of others who are not from the same walk of life we are. We are compassionate to those seeking solace from harm. We are aware that all humans are equal in that we value the thoughts and contributions that come from a woman's mind as much as we do a man's. We respect that love is love and the government need not restrict or condemn that love because government cannot restrict or condemn something it does not own.
But we didn't.
We instead as a collective said that we are frightened, we are scared, we are easily bought into hateful speech and we see someone who has never walked a path of public service, in fact quite the opposite, as the best candidate to hold our nation's highest position expected to serve the public.
If you are a farmer, and you have to hand off your responsibilities and livelihood to a successor, would you pick someone who has never farmed a day in their life over someone who is actually criticized for being too much of a farmer? I don't think I would. But I think our country just did.
I don't know what is going to happen after this election result. Our country could stay stagnantly the same as a result of blockading policies thrown to us by the president-to-be. We could slope downward into a society of hate and factless information that leads to race wars, human rights oppression of the LGBTQ community, and worse. What I don't see anywhere, is progress.
So today, I'm disappointed. I don't like writing about negative thought forms because they can worry and fester and ruin a day. But I could not ignore what happened, for fear it might be a landmark in our country's decaying democracy.
I hope that in this next period of time we gather our thoughts, really think about what we did and how we all contributed to it, and prove to ourselves and whatever creator we believe in that we are better than the way we've represented ourself in government. I don't think any religious deity, regardless of what you believe, would be very proud of the position we just took on what our collective leader should be.
